The Miscellaneous Rantings of a Drama Queen

Hopefully I'll have some good news to report soon! I'm not going into details because I'm afraid of jinxing it, but I'm excited! :D

Well, since I'm down to one follower, I guess this is for you, dear Mary. Well, life is moving along fine. It consists mostly of work. That's all for now. :)

Well, I haven't posted in almost a year. I have a new position at BBY. I work on the project team and go between the 3 Asheville area stores doing planograms. They only let me work 32 hours a week, so that they don't have to make me full time. I tried to look into getting a car today, but I make $100 less a month than their minimum requirement. Blah!! Other than my car falling apart and my lack of insurance, life is going well. I think that covers all the new stuff. I hope everyone is doing well too! I love you all!!!!

New phone number, new puppy, 2 new kittens, new job (soon!). That's my current life. Nothing else new. The puppy just chewed my mouse cord in half. Great! I wish I could understand people. I want to be able to read their minds and find out why they do things. Why do people behave as they do? I didn't do anything to you. Why do you feel the need to be so nasty to me???? Some days I just want to say I'm done and check out. But then I have days like Wednesday. I was so upset and frustrated. I tried to schedule my cell payment for Friday and accidentally had it taken out of my account immediately. There wasn't enough for it in my account. I called Sprint immediately to have it reversed. They couldn't do that. Because it took all my money (and some) the stuff that originally had enough money for didn't have enough money either. So now, lots of charges. :( I headed to Darla's to take care of Mr. Adorable and was just venting to her about being up...

I keep playing near the fire, thinking this one will be different. But every time I think that this time maybe, just maybe, I won't. I always do. I want to douse the fire, never to look back at it again, but I know I won't. Every time I swear this is it, there's no hope left, no one for me out there. But, I still have one little bit of hope left. I feel like the empress at the end of The Neverending Story. I hold that one little glimmer in my hand, but there is no Bastian to make my world whole again. Love is a cruel joke that the universe plays on us. I don't know that I believe there is such a thing. I've never seen true love work out for anyone close to me except my brother. Why should I think that I'm any different than the other women in my life? I'm doomed to be like them, alone or miserable. Life has proven this to me.

Well, I'm not going to Tennessee this weekend. I'm not going out west this summer. I don't know why I bother making plans, since I haven't kept any of them recently. I'll hopefully make it to Tennessee in August and I really, really hope I get to see New York for New Year's 2010, but at this point I'm not certain of anything. So, if I'm making plans with you, don't be surprised if I don't make it.