The Miscellaneous Rantings of a Drama Queen

Well, I haven't posted in almost a year. I have a new position at BBY. I work on the project team and go between the 3 Asheville area stores doing planograms. They only let me work 32 hours a week, so that they don't have to make me full time. I tried to look into getting a car today, but I make $100 less a month than their minimum requirement. Blah!! Other than my car falling apart and my lack of insurance, life is going well. I think that covers all the new stuff. I hope everyone is doing well too! I love you all!!!!

New phone number, new puppy, 2 new kittens, new job (soon!). That's my current life. Nothing else new. The puppy just chewed my mouse cord in half. Great! I wish I could understand people. I want to be able to read their minds and find out why they do things. Why do people behave as they do? I didn't do anything to you. Why do you feel the need to be so nasty to me???? Some days I just want to say I'm done and check out. But then I have days like Wednesday. I was so upset and frustrated. I tried to schedule my cell payment for Friday and accidentally had it taken out of my account immediately. There wasn't enough for it in my account. I called Sprint immediately to have it reversed. They couldn't do that. Because it took all my money (and some) the stuff that originally had enough money for didn't have enough money either. So now, lots of charges. :( I headed to Darla's to take care of Mr. Adorable and was just venting to her about being up...

I keep playing near the fire, thinking this one will be different. But every time I think that this time maybe, just maybe, I won't. I always do. I want to douse the fire, never to look back at it again, but I know I won't. Every time I swear this is it, there's no hope left, no one for me out there. But, I still have one little bit of hope left. I feel like the empress at the end of The Neverending Story. I hold that one little glimmer in my hand, but there is no Bastian to make my world whole again. Love is a cruel joke that the universe plays on us. I don't know that I believe there is such a thing. I've never seen true love work out for anyone close to me except my brother. Why should I think that I'm any different than the other women in my life? I'm doomed to be like them, alone or miserable. Life has proven this to me.

Well, I'm not going to Tennessee this weekend. I'm not going out west this summer. I don't know why I bother making plans, since I haven't kept any of them recently. I'll hopefully make it to Tennessee in August and I really, really hope I get to see New York for New Year's 2010, but at this point I'm not certain of anything. So, if I'm making plans with you, don't be surprised if I don't make it.

Ok. Nothing much has changed. Still at BBY. Still single. Still working that customer service desk. New stuff: We aren't going to make our trip out west this year. I hope that I can make it next year. Even if Brooke can't make it, I want to. One more year that I have to postpone. Sorry Jon, Prices, Turners, Miltons and Jesse. I have a new obsession: World of Warcraft, but at least I get some socializing out of it. Jen and I are going to start this diet thing together. Darla is due in July. For those that didn't know, Darla is having a baby. Lauren and I got an apartment last year. She's got engaged to Grant Racer (now she's Lauren Racer!), so we got out of our lease. I'm staying with mom until I get my car paid and loan paid off. Dad's wife left him, again, this time she took his money and I'm pretty sure she's the person behind his recent house robbery due to the items that were stolen. Only his guns were stolen and some of them wouldn...

So...I've been mapquesting all morning. I'm trying to find out the best ways to fit in all the places we want to see into the 2 weeks we'll have. Casa Bonita, Lakewood, CO: A supercool restaurant, made famous in the "Casa Bonita" episode of South Park. I promised to bring Brian back a souvenir. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casa_Bonita 7-8 hours from SLC, according to Mapquest. Colorado Springs, CO: A visit to Katie, Ben and Mackinsie. I may take this one alone, depending on if Brooke wants to go or not. This would be a great chance to get a two in one, being that Colorado Springs is only a little over an hour away from Lakewood. Sacramento, CA: We don't have a specific place set yet for our visit to CA. Our friend Dustin will be living in Sacramento and he says it's a beautiful city and a great vacation spot. 9-10 hours from SLC. Disneyland, Anaheim, CA: I'd love to go to Disneyland. It would be a great trip with Nick, Jen, Layla and Ju...

As I sit here and read my friends' blogs I realize that I really have NO life. I am still single...still...yep, still single. I graduated with a degree that I don't know what to do with and can't afford to go back to school for a different one yet. My job is part-time and it is killing me financially, but I keep hanging in there, waiting for the full-time position. Jen and Nick have a beautiful family and marriage. Brooke has a great job she loves, is going to school to better herself, and loves Aaron. Jordan, also going to school to make something of himself, has some very deep things to say and does lots of stuff. Steve and Heidi just got married and recently bought a house together. Emma has an amazing family, including her new daughter-in-law, Heidi. I am, however, very lucky to have such great friends to love and inspire me. I am very grateful for everything I do have. I may have a boring job and no life, but I am blessed with friendship. So, thank you all f...