Life.....it's........there.

New phone number, new puppy, 2 new kittens, new job (soon!). That's my current life. Nothing else new.

The puppy just chewed my mouse cord in half. Great!

I wish I could understand people. I want to be able to read their minds and find out why they do things. Why do people behave as they do? I didn't do anything to you. Why do you feel the need to be so nasty to me????

Some days I just want to say I'm done and check out. But then I have days like Wednesday. I was so upset and frustrated. I tried to schedule my cell payment for Friday and accidentally had it taken out of my account immediately. There wasn't enough for it in my account. I called Sprint immediately to have it reversed. They couldn't do that. Because it took all my money (and some) the stuff that originally had enough money for didn't have enough money either. So now, lots of charges. :( I headed to Darla's to take care of Mr. Adorable and was just venting to her about being upset with myself for not being more cautious in trying to set up an internet payment. She says she's sorry. We chat for a few moments and she heads to work. I get to play with this amazing little boy for a few minutes and then Darla calls. She offers to pay me for next week early so that I can put it in my account!!! YAY!!!!! I was happy!! Then little man makes me happy by just being him. Babies have an amazing ability to just make me happy! I love them!!! All is well. I feel good about my financial status. I am happy. Then I check my bank account. Of course they process the fees from the stuff that bounced, then the debits that were in process, then my deposit. Yay! More fees! Now I have no money. :( Thanks Asheville Savings Bank. You could have processed the deposit first, then the debits, then the fees to help keep me from getting more. But you don't. How nice of you!

I still have my moments of anger at Heavenly Father. It seems that He often gives me something I need/want, but it has a catch. It is never a gift that doesn't punish me somehow. Examples, I get my transfer, but I'm losing close to $650/month gross pay. Darla pays me early so I can get money in the bank to fix my mistake and it doesn't seem to make any difference. Everything that I was trying to keep from bouncing does anyway. I often wonder just what I've done to deserve it. Oh well. Life, unfortunately sometimes, go on.

I'm done for now. I love you all.

I haz teh sad.......

I keep playing near the fire, thinking this one will be different. But every time I think that this time maybe, just maybe, I won't. I always do. I want to douse the fire, never to look back at it again, but I know I won't. Every time I swear this is it, there's no hope left, no one for me out there. But, I still have one little bit of hope left. I feel like the empress at the end of The Neverending Story. I hold that one little glimmer in my hand, but there is no Bastian to make my world whole again.

Love is a cruel joke that the universe plays on us. I don't know that I believe there is such a thing. I've never seen true love work out for anyone close to me except my brother. Why should I think that I'm any different than the other women in my life? I'm doomed to be like them, alone or miserable. Life has proven this to me.

Changing plans

Well, I'm not going to Tennessee this weekend. I'm not going out west this summer. I don't know why I bother making plans, since I haven't kept any of them recently. I'll hopefully make it to Tennessee in August and I really, really hope I get to see New York for New Year's 2010, but at this point I'm not certain of anything.

So, if I'm making plans with you, don't be surprised if I don't make it.

New stuff

Ok. Nothing much has changed. Still at BBY. Still single. Still working that customer service desk.

New stuff:

We aren't going to make our trip out west this year. I hope that I can make it next year. Even if Brooke can't make it, I want to. One more year that I have to postpone. Sorry Jon, Prices, Turners, Miltons and Jesse.

I have a new obsession: World of Warcraft, but at least I get some socializing out of it.

Jen and I are going to start this diet thing together.

Darla is due in July. For those that didn't know, Darla is having a baby.

Lauren and I got an apartment last year. She's got engaged to Grant Racer (now she's Lauren Racer!), so we got out of our lease. I'm staying with mom until I get my car paid and loan paid off.

Dad's wife left him, again, this time she took his money and I'm pretty sure she's the person behind his recent house robbery due to the items that were stolen. Only his guns were stolen and some of them wouldn't be found unless you knew just where to look. I think this is the last straw and he won't take her back. I pray!




I can't think of anything else. I hope you all are doing well. I love you all!

A.