Grateful

When I get too much in my head, I start to doubt things. Because it's easy, my recent doubts have been about the Church. I was asked to give my testimony in Relief Society, but I couldn't. I allow the things around me to cast doubt on something that I KNOW is true. It's a struggle because I don't allow myself to get as involved as I should. Brooke has a mack-daddy foothold in the Gospel, but she puts the effort in to maintain that. I don't. I've allowed work, school, bills, stress to rule my life. That leaves no room for the Church. I'm trying to overcome that. I'm trying to read the Scriptures every day. Maybe one day I'll start attending YSA events and Institute.

I try to remember all the MANY blessings I've received since joining the Church. It is those blessings and the knowledge that I know the Church is true (despite what my mind may think) that keep me going. I can't come close to naming everything I have to be grateful for. If it weren't for the Church I don't know where I'd be now. My job, which I LOVE, is mine because of the Church. I have been provided for, protected, blessed, healed (physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally) , and so much more that I can't even name it all.

I have so much to be grateful for. It is this knowledge & the push I feel in my heart that keeps me going. If it weren't for everything Heavenly Father has given me I don't know where I'd be.

Thanks.